I am so tired of myself. I am tired of trying to be a better person and live a better life only to get knocked down a peg or two. Why can’t I just be a normal reasonable adult? Why does it always seem as though I act so crazy? I don’t want to be crazy anymore. I don’t want to be depressed anymore. I want to truly give to others instead of feeling as though I only take. I am shut into a house that is in sore need of repair with two small children who are dependent upon me for their every need. I am so exhausted. And I am so tired of feeling as though I look like such a pathetic wreck to others. I am tired of the bills I try to pay but do not have the money for. I am tired of picking up after my husband. I am tired of feeling like a failure. I am tired of feeling as though I am found lacking when compared to others. Please, God, if you are there, please let some sunshine in. Please, could I have some relief from all of this pain?